balance.

One thing I am really excited about is being done with the big EVENT and just being married. I have big plans for a better routine, a more organized life --> balance. While I have enjoyed planning my wedding, there has been this constant THING (I don't want to say burden) on my shoulders. It is not a burden, because my wedding is something I am excited about... but, its like I can't truly relax, because there is always something I could be doing for it. Now that we're down to the last month, I feel like I can finally look forward to --> life past the wedding.

In addition to the wedding, work was crazy this summer. I didn't do just my job, I did a couple more... and it brought me down, and it made me bitter. Some of that has been resolved, some of it still stands - but, I am learning to blame less and do what I can each day. And be okay with it.

I want to set some short term goals for myself for post-wedding Paige - fewer than my 101 in 1,001:

• New routine. Even though I have been running around busy for months, I also have been more lazy than ever - because every time I have a free minute, I want to sit and zone out from the mental workout of the day. I can't wait to be back to my normal, day-to-day life duties, and make room for getting up earlier, taking walks again, and getting to sleep at a normal time. Maybe I will wake up with the alarm instead of my usual scramble?
  


• Grocery shopping. Wow, I really messed up on this. Like I said above, the mental roller coaster would wear me out so bad each day that I wouldn't feel up for planning my grocery store visits. So, I would quickly pick up the essentials and food for a couple meals, and then we would be wondering what to eat three days later... I need to get back to my meal planning and accountability to the plan. We were happier and healthier when I took the time to do this. Plus! When I cook, John cleans up.
  


• Time for friends. In some ways I have really checked out. I can't wait to put them first for a while.
  


• Time for family. Ditto.
  


• Cleaning. (see Grocery shopping.) Yeah, it's clean... enough. But, it's really messy. And those gifts? They are awesome, but I haven't had the strength to clean up and move out the old stuff.

Wish me the best. Hopefully I will be reporting to you in October that my life has slowed down and I am meeting these goals.